Anyone who takes the time to read all of this, thank you

Preface:
Hello everyone.
Over the last hour or two I've been thinking about the current state of my life and my relationships with other human beings...also my hobbies/interests/family/education/personal health. In this post, I'm going to lay out a lot of my life, anyone who reads it will know me as well as my closest friends. I picked this subforum to post this thread, because much of my time on XS relates to my hobby of overclocking, and I talk to you guys more than anyone here on the forum...

My whole life is a mess right now, and while I don't find myself addicted to things, like drugs or criminal activity, my life is a huge mess right now and I need the help of other people in life to get me through it.