Hi guys, even though it might not be the place believe it or not is the best I could find. As the subject says I might be kicked off away from home. Relationship with my relatives has taken the stage of being denigrated without any logical argument.
My profile/presentation is:
My name is Juan and I live in Buenos Aires :
-med student ( 3rd grade of the biggest university which is FREE;yes FREE) which costed me enormous amount of energy to achieve.
- part time/pocket money worker ( I donīt have the energy to do the stuff on my own so I pay a bunch of mates to help me, they get exactly the same amount $ as I get/it is a paid for work job-> you work more you get more $). I get approximately $150 per/mo ( I know its not polite to talk about numbers but given the situation I must) and I work like a mule for it ( I like it as I work from home using my computer, canīt complain at all).
-do some weight lifting in a very light way ( no steroids, protein, weigh gainers, creatine, or any other tricky sh.. , of course I am not very biggie, although I am 1.93 m tall) which helps me cope with everyday stuff.
-I donīt drink ( I might in a special ocassion) and have never tried smoking any weird thing ( the bob marley thing)
-I know and assumed I have had several psychiatric issues since I was 16, I am 24 years old now (started with panic attacks and now that is solved and I am being diagnosed ADHD). I tend to get very irritable and somehow frustrated .I mainly attribute this to lack of capability to solve issues as I had serotonin targeted meds when they had nothing to do ( that made me loose 5 years of my life approx as I started with those crappy Freudologists and then had the meds).
Even though I know my way of being towards my mom and sister is not like a lamb I am not like the devil either, BUT they are completely inconsiderate and give a s. about my stuff. I have to beg for money to buy my meds ( which can cost as an exaggerated cost $100/mo) when at the same time they buy a 200 bucks coat for my sister ( 20 years old) for THE season . After the season ends she wipes it ( its not even to protect herself from cold, its just the fashion sh..). When I complain about that type of things ( those happen approx 5 times a day) they try to piss me off. My dad even threatened me to call the police ( at the time he was still living here) as he was a drunk coward who used to beat me and know that I am a grown up mofo with a respectable body I confront him .
I know many of this stuff repeats and thank god I have a relatively stable situation, but If I get kicked I would have to quit my studies (completely unfair as I paid for my books and other stuff that costed quite a bunch when the same did not happen with my sister).
Get some anger with my sister who is the sonuva that shuts down the computer she and my mom uses when I asked her not to do so ( she even said she like the project and pays us that way .. not a big cruncher but every bit helps our beloved team mates who suffer and donīt deserver what theyīve got ( Jon, Scott, Chris and many others whom I recall about every day and think about).
I know I sound like a little boy whining but I would love to hear if possible any suggestions. I try to be gentle and my mom attends to church but when she arrives here she does everything the other way
I am leaving my rig only folding for tonight to try some stuff. I love you guys! Its 520 am and I had a smashing day, I am going to have some sleep!
J
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