meh. badbadstuff..
im not sure even what to write..
im glad your spirits are high (from the sounds of it) and hope that everything can get figured out and fixed.
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meh. badbadstuff..
im not sure even what to write..
im glad your spirits are high (from the sounds of it) and hope that everything can get figured out and fixed.
Its true, this is terrible news to receive, however at least you know what the cause of everything is. While I've never experienced anything on this magnitude of life-changing, I can say for certain that knowing what's wrong is far more relieving than not knowing what's right or wrong.
I'm so very glad I've spent a microcosmic fraction of my life talking to you on the phone once before now.
The first thing I want to say here is that the comments from friends means more than I can put into words.
I mean that, it truly helps.
Just came back from the "Meet and greet" with the Oncology Dr.
He impressed me, he listened and when I told him how weak I've been prescribed a mild steroid. He said that should help in that area
In the United States where I practice, there remains a difference of opinion between various groups. On one side the U.S. Preventive Services Task Force (USPSTF) recommends against prostate-specific antigen (PSA)-based screening for prostate cancer. This recommendation was based on two large trials. On the other side the American Urology Association differs and believes that the USPSTF interpretation of the data is flawed and the fact that another landmark study was not included is relevant. I have been monitoring PSAs routinely for the past 13 years and am confident that I have positively impacted a number of individuals by doing so. At the very least, I think that primary care physicians should at least have a discussion with patients and let them be an active participant in their health care. The information is not harmful, it is what is potentially done with that information that is relevant. And we have specialists in order to help people deal with that information.
We all have a certain amount of grains of sand in each of our hourglasses. We just never know how many any of us have. Stay positive and always try to find the joy in the journey.
-Mark
The first and last line of each stanza from Dylan Thomas's famous poem keep echoing in my head ...
I wish you all the best my brother of the crunch ...
Do not go gentle into that good night ...
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
I tend to say "We aren't born with a sticker on our backsides that says " Guaranteed for XX years" so we agree
Thanks for the info.
That line has been in my head for a week now.
Got some steroids from the Oncology Dr today. Seems to be working well.
Hey movieman, I just checked in after a long time to see what's going on and then I read this. Terrible news.
I honestly admire your attitude towards this, and wish you nothing but the best. You will be in the thoughts of people all over the world.
You are in my prayers Dave.
Terrible news, Dave, and you have my support too.
When talking to someone that we know has a chronic life-threatening disease, most of us avoid talking about the issue for fear of upsetting the sufferer, either by reminding them of their condition or by saying the wrong thing. By starting this thread, you've got us over the first hurdle, and I hope that neither I or anyone slse says something that upsets you - well, not much, anyway.
Prostate cancer runs in my Dad's side of the family, so I've learnt a bit about it. It's also the cancer that affects or has affected more people I know than has any other cancer. 4 of them including my "baby" 61-yo brother, have had RP surgery. 3 of those are clear of the cancer, tho at about 1 year later for 2 of them it's a bit soon to tell. The cancer came back in the 4th guy but he's still alive after about 10 years, tho he's had a rough time at various stages. And I know 2 others who were diagnosed too late for surgery. They're both still going some years later. They've been very sick sometimes, but have had good periods too. Bottom line is that with therapeutic intervention it's usually a slow-growing cancer, so you should be around to see that beastie machine you've built climb up through the crunching rankings.
Re: "We aren't born with a sticker on our backsides that says " Guaranteed for XX years"
I've had a rough year healthwise over the last 12 months too. Someone informed me that "65 is the age when the warranty on your body runs out" (I'm 66 now). You've still got a few years to run on yours, young fella, so you might try getting an RMA from your makers if they're still in business. OTOH they may not be able to do a replacement nowadays, so you'll just have to accept a really good hug. http://www.freesmileys.org/smileys/smiley-hug006.gif
Any so called life problems I have or had suddenly pale in comparison.
Stay strong, Dave.
Some people keep things to themselves but I've always believed in 'get it out" and say what you feel.
This situation sucks but it is what it is.
I'm doing what I can do, seeing the Dr's I'm supposed to and so far they all seem excellent and caring people.
The pain is the biggest issue. Haven't slept more than 2.5 hours in weeks except for one night.
The drugs are another concern as I never took any pills my whole life and I mean none.
They also vary. Woke up at 3:30am today and right knee was killing me, pills didn't help and that was 2 vicoden and a steroid pill.
Hot bath, big bowl of cheerios to take my mind off the pain and that helped a bit.
Last, the friendships and comments help more than you know.
More Dr's visits later this am.
This has become my new life.. Dr, follow-up, Dr, follow-up, rinse and repeat! :D
Hope you don't mind me asking, but have your doctors verified that the f*cking stupid cancer has already found its way to your bones ?
Sorry to hear about all this, really sorry about your pain and sleepless nights Dave :(
Dave, there are no words that can express how sorry I am to hear this kind of news. What really sucks is the doctors did not catch this earlier. But it is what it is. Have known many folks to kick cancers ass. I know you have to testicle fortitude to do more than kick its ass, but send it far away. With today's technology, your chances are very strong to beat it. The road will be all up hill, rough, full of pot holes but we know your determination can do it. You have many friends here that are willing to help. Don't hesitate to make that call for help. I have no problem making that drive as am sure others will too. JUST ASK! Good luck at the doctor's office today. Keep us updated. WE are here to help.
Yes and Thanks.
I know and I appreciate your thoughts my friend. Thank you.
Today met with the cardiologist and the financial person from the hospital;
Heart is the same, ok, and getting help from the hospital's private fund for the costs.
HUGE money involved here and I already have over $250,000.00 before this deal from the heart last year.
I dont actively post, but actively troll. You are one of those who make what xs is and get me to troll the forum frequently.
My prayers are with you.
It has been a long time since I checked in on XS, and to read this news and to know that my good friend Dave has gone to the Crunching Team in the Sky, truly saddens my heart. Dave was more than just a friend, he was a brother to me and helped me in so many ways. His good nature and kind heart touched so many people around the world, bringing a smile to all that met him. I can not put into words the loss that I feel and this world has truly lost one of the Good Guys. Rest in Piece my friend, I will see you one day. God Bless!
John
i been away for a while and just to hear dave is gone is a shock
i'm sure god has a nice place ready and some 1 million core cpus up there for you to play with
rest in peace
god bless
My old dear friend, I have been gone for far too long.
It is a shame how easy it is to lose track of people when life gets so crazy.
How I miss our phone conversations.
Charles, can we make Dave an XIP? Or Xtreme Legend? Something in his memory.
I tried but that is out of my domain! But i agree...
I am building a X99 server/cruncher for my home, I have decided to dedicate it to MovieMan and all the help and support he has provided all of us.
He was key in the development of my Overclocking Skills.
The build will do Crunching tooo....I will shoot for 24/7
I will post a Build Thread in that forum.
But the base guts will be a....
X99 - Gigabyte X99P-Sli
E5 2690-V3 12 core / 24 thread
4x4G =16G Corsair Dominator Platinum
I am just waiting on the chip and should have it early next week.
But in the thread I will have a lot of questions on how to build it to maximise it's Crunching Ability..
What would be the best Ram amount, Right now I have 4x4G =16G Corsair Dominator Platinum `2800Mhz 16-18--18-36 1.2v
What will be the right gpu and stuff like that, best program or multiple programs.
I haVE BEEN TRYING TO GET INTO cRUNCHING FOR A WHILE NOW BUT I KEEP STALLING.
BUT i WILL PREVAIL, This is for MovieMan....
Everyone have a safe and fun holiday season!
we used to chat over gmail everytime I open my gmail account I can see my last chat saying: Later Boss... Miss him dearly
Bumping this one back up top.
Dave left us too soon to see the unlocked XEON's in the wild.
Put them on WCG for Team XS in his honor :)